Wednesday, March 20, 2013

The Second Time Around

*I wrote this about a month ago*

Now that people have found out that I'm pregnant the question I get asked the most is "Are you excited?"  Of course i'm excited, but if I'm being honest i'm scared out of my mind.

With the first baby you have no clue what to expect other than stories you hear from others or what you might read.  Everything is just an element of surprise and it's so exciting to reach the next milestone in the pregnancy.  

Don't get me wrong, I get excited about going to the doctor and am able to hear the heartbeat, I can't wait to find out the gender and feel him/her kick and squirm around.  I'm scared about what happens during delivery.  I vividly remember that.  Obviously having a child as a result of that pain is definitely worth it all, but I'm still scared.  

Since Addi was in the NICU for the first month of her life, I didn't have the experience of taking home a newborn.  We could only see her during visiting hours, so I tried to relax as much as possible outside of those hours.  Staying at the hotel for 3 weeks cut out on travel time to and from the hospital, so I could just walk back to our room and take a nap if I needed to.  So, I'm definitely nervous about bringing home a newborn!

I'm also afraid of how Addi will handle having a baby in the house.  It won't all be about her.  She especially LOVES her daddy and gets very jealous if his attention gets directed to someone else.  Even when he gives me attention over her she tells me to "go play" haha!

Most of all, i'm scared something is going to happen during/after delivery.  I know i'm going to be a paranoid mess and it's going to be hard for me just to relax.  I guess I just automatically assume something bad is going to happen (I know this is crazy).  As much as I trust in God's plan for my life, I can't shake the nervousness.  I guess that means I have a lot of work to do on just letting go and giving it all to Him.

I feel like everywhere I look there is hurting and sadness because of the sickness or death of a loved one.  There are a ton of Facebook pages and blogs dedicated to telling the stories of sick children.  I can't look at them.  I used to, but they began taking my mind to a bad place.  A place where I would be so worried about that happening to my child or my husband that it would just make me sick.  I do pray for these children and families, but when it comes to reading the details of their situations, I just simply can't. I have no doubts that God heals because I have seen it with my own two eyes.

I have been praying for strength and confidence in knowing that God will be in control no matter what happens.  I don't for one second question Him.  I may not understand why things happen the way they do, but I do understand that His plan is greater than mine and no matter what all I want to do is glorify Him.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Boys Clothing and Pretty Weather

A sweet friend from church gave me an early shopping pass to a huge consignment sale in the Birmingham area.  This is the first sale since I found out that we are having a boy, so I was pumped to get shopping.  Let me preface all of this by saying I LOVE a good consignment sale.  It's the best way to get smocked/boutique clothing for a fraction of the price.  Pretty much 80% of Addi's clothes come from these sales.  I will take a $70 outfit for $20 any day!

I know little girls' clothing like the back of my hand.  I can rattle off 20 name brands, I know how they all fit and I know what I like.  Even my friends can see an outfit and be like "yep, Mary Beth would buy that for Addi".  I'm kind of obsessed with dressing Addi and I'm really particular about what she wears.  

Now lets get to shopping for Jack.  I arrived at the sale ready to shop and I couldn't wait to get started....until I got to the HUGE rack of boy clothes.  I stood there like I have never bought baby clothes before.  I had no clue what to do and it was the weirdest feeling.  Finally I remembered that babies pretty much live in onesies for the first few months, so I started there.  That's pretty much all I bought.  I'm just going to wait until closer to his arrival before I buy any more clothes.  I then drifted over to shop for Addi and I felt much more at home - haha.  Her closet is pretty much overflowing, so I only bought her two little outfits.

After my morning shopping experience (Brad approved of all my purchases BTW, so I guess I didn't buy anything too "girly" haha), Brad, Addi and I headed out for lunch and to run some errands.  We hit up Lowes and Home Depot because Brad wanted to start working in the yard since the weather was so perfect and he needed some supplies.  Addi was in the best mood and was great in all of the stores we went to.  Once home, we played outside some before Addi crashed and was in bed about 7:30.  It was such a great day!

Today, we went to church, small group and lunch with Brad's parents.  They ended up taking Addi home with them, so I was able to take a good nap!  I only slept for about an hour, but It felt like 5.  It was absolutely wonderful!  Addi played outside with Brad's parents all day and then we played again when she got home.  She loves being outdoors and isn't afraid to get dirty.   I, on the other hand, would rather be inside where it's nice and cool and there aren't any bugs!  (Unless I'm on the beach!)

We had such a great weekend and I hope y'all did too!

Friday, March 15, 2013

We're Having A.....


We are SO excited to be having a little boy!  I told Brad in the waiting room before we went in for the ultrasound that I wanted a little boy so bad, but that probably meant we were going to have a girl - haha.  Of course I would not be disappointed with a little girl, but I'm elated to have one of each!

We had already decided on the name Jackson Bradley several weeks ago.  Jackson is my maiden name and obviously Bradley is my hubby's name.   We are going to call him Jack for short.

Everything looked great with my ultrasound except they found that I have something called "marginal cord insertion".  I have never heard of this, but apparently the umbilical cord is supposed to go in the middle of the placenta and mine goes in on the side.  Later in my pregnancy this could affect the baby's growth and they might have to take him early.  Right now the baby and organs are growing just fine, and there is nothing for us to be concerned about.  The doctor just wants to have a few more ultrasounds as my pregnancy goes along.  

Other than that, my appointment went great!  I knew the whole losing weight while pregnant thing wouldn't last.  I finally gained two pounds.  My appetite has definitely increased these past few weeks.  Speaking of appetite, I have been craving pickles!  I can't get enough, but I will only eat the whole dill pickles - you know the ones you used to buy at the ball park concession stand?? YUM!

I'm so excited to finally know what we are having.  It makes things more "real".  I'm going shopping tomorrow to find Jack something to wear (I'm even excited about dressing a boy...Brad has given me strict rules about his wardrobe and I was told I can't dress him like a girl - haha) and next I need to start thinking about the nursery.  It honestly hasn't crossed my mind much, but we need to get busy planning!

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Monday, March 11, 2013

3 Year Check-Up

This little girl got TWO stickers at the doctor today b/c she was a spectacular patient!

She weighed 36 lbs (90th percentile) and was 39 inches tall (94th percentile).  She took her Doc McStuffins stethoscope and listened to Dr. Lytle's heart!   After our horrible visit to the eye doctor last week, I asked my mom to meet us there in case things got a little out of control.  She was such a big help! Nurse Melanie saved the finger prick until after we saw Dr. L b/c we weren't sure how Addi would handle it.  We all stood in amazement when Addi didn't even act like she was going to cry.  She just sat there and watched her take blood from her tiny little finger.  I couldn't believe how good she was!  Not only did she get two stickers for being so good, but I took her to get a milkshake afterwards (I may have gotten one too!)

Dr. L said he was very pleased with how far she has come and he always tells us that she is our little miracle.  The only thing we really have to work on is her sleeping in her big girl bed.  Hopefully, this will happen before baby #2 arrives!

Speaking of baby #2, we find out Thursday if Addi will have a little brother or sister!  I'm SO excited!


Our weekend started with a much needed date night!  Brad and I went to a local Japanese restaurant for dinner and then made our way up and down the isles of Sam's.  Very romantic :)

Saturday morning we got up early and went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast.  After she devoured two pancakes and a piece of bacon, we went downtown to see Disney Live - Mickey's Music Festival.

We quickly found our seats and all was well.  I kept telling Addi that Mickey would be coming out any minute and would be right in front of us.  She kept pointing to the stage saying "Mickey's coming!".  She seemed really excited...

After the music started and Mickey and friends came out, the screaming began.  She kept saying "Mickey don't want it" and "I want to go".  We thought she would stop, but after 5 minutes, we decided to leave.  We didn't want to torture her.  We had front row seats and that was just too close.  I was really disappointed b/c I thought I was doing something she would love, but I have learned my lesson and will buy the cheap tickets from now on!  I ended up giving the tickets to a family that was walking in the door as we were leaving.  We spent $200 for 5 minutes of screaming and for another family to enjoy our seats.

Sunday was filled with church and lunch with our small group.  The weather was SO perfect this weekend too.  Addi and I went to my mom's house Sunday afternoon and played outside.  Addi loves talking to mom's dogs through the fence (she's terrified of dogs normally).  Here she is dancing around...

Other than our little Mickey mishap, we had a fantastic weekend and I hope y'all did too!

Monday, March 4, 2013

Happy Birthday, Addi!

This past weekend we celebrated Addi's 3rd birthday by having a party at Pump It Up.  We have never been there before, but she LOVED it!  I loved it too b/c they did everything for me and I didn't I have to clean my house :)  It was totally worth the money!  She had 8 little friends there and they had the best time...

Her Repunzel's castle cake - it was so yummy!  If you are in the B'ham area and need someone to make a cake, message me b/c I have the best person who you need to contact!!

 Addi and her bff Kate

 Some of the party goers

 She went down the slide about a hundred times!

Opening her presents.

Since I'm pregnant, Brad was the lucky one to go up and down the slide with her.  He really got a work out- haha!  She had the best time and can't wait to go back.

Today is Addi's actual birthday.  It's hard to believe this is even her at 2 days old...

I'm not sure if I have said this before or not, but it's hard for me to look at pictures of her on the actual day she was born.  She didn't start having seizures until the next morning, so in my mind, she is in some kind of pain that we didn't know about the night she was born.  So, it's difficult for me to look at them, but I can look at the pics of her in the NICU b/c I know she is getting better and being taken care of.

She is our little miracle baby and I love her more and more each day.  She has the best little personality.  Although, she is super shy around groups of people - especially those she doesn't know (she gets this from her momma I'm afraid).  Once you have her to yourself or you are around her for a while she opens up and her sweet and funny personality shines through.  She cracks us up all of the time.

She's a total daddy's girl.  He can really do no wrong!  I LOVE seeing Brad with her.  It makes my heart smile.  He's just the best daddy and i'm so thankful for him each and every day.

She loves anything princess.  Princess 'Rella (Cinderella) is her favorite right now and we have seen that movie 193884 times.  She also loves singing, dancing and playing with her friends.  

She's become a picky eater.  Her favorite foods are oatmeal, yogurt, applesauce, Chick-Fil-A, okra, mashed potatoes, peas and chips.  

Tonight, after work, I came home to make a birthday dinner of pancakes and bacon.  My mom and Brad's parents came over for a little while to see the birthday girl.  She had a great time seeing everyone and is now laying in bed with her daddy watching princess rella!  I'd say she had a great birthday!  Now momma is going to cry a few tears because my baby is growing up WAY too fast!